Circles of Life

My mother turned 80 this year and we celebrated by going out to eat. We were 10 people in all and it was a great time except for the vegetable risotto.....which can out dressed like soup. Can't win them all.....the waiter took it off the bill so, whatever! We went back home for cake and coffee.....my niece and her boyfriend took my grandkids downstairs to run aound and play. Before they went home, my niece asked about my husbands bike which is stored downstairs. He had to have this bike for his 40th birthday (10 years ago) just had to have it......well, it's been in the basement since...maybe saw the light of day 5 times (I am being generous). My nieces' boyfriend is a bicylist, he trains and races all year round and he saw the bike. Seems it is a really nice bike and he was wondering if we would sell it to him. It was like a answer to a prayer....my mom has been complaining about the junk in the basement forever. So I said I try to get my husband to give it to them.....not tonight......but promised I'll work on it.

So early one morning I asked him to give the bike to my nieces' boyfriend.....what????.....can't you see I'm trying to get in shape...I'll be using the bike probably next week.....early in the morning....take the dog with me.....I'm going to stop smoking......you are not going to recognize me.....are you crazy?? that was my birthday present.....you bought it for me remember??.....oh boy...this is going to take a little longer than I thought.

My niece called me after a few days and I told her they will have the bike but not now.....is there a big rush....no......good. I asked if they wanted a pair of roller blades each......my husband bought us each a pair and thought he was going to get me to roller blade....yeah!!....A great idea I thought at first but reality set in fast. We went once to the park and I almost broke a hip....not for me. I think the blades were my idea......crazy things you do in your 40"s!

My husband is buying fresh food from the organic market.....great stuff.....buys much too much......I take it to work and eat it for lunch.....he is trying....I'm eating better... not taking the bike out tho...he is still not working so it's not about time...plenty of that around here......in a few weeks it will be too hot to ride a bike.....hear this every year......He loves my niece and I know he will give them the bike......but it will be his idea.

Now I am enjoying the peace......Spring is here so I'm cleaning out the basement and closets....someone out there can use what we don't...bagging it all up, waiting for the flyer to let me know when to put it all on the stoop.......all in a circle.

Thinking of making a cauliflower soup for Easter.....

2-2-2

Today is my husband's 50th birthday........Feb 22......222.........it's also George Washiington's birthday...happy birthday Mr. President. There was supposed to be a big party...celebration for this day but as things are turning out.......I took my husband for brunch yesterday afternoon instead. He thought it was a surprize and was looking for all our friends......he started to cry and asked me why I could not wait for him to grow up?? I just let him talk......I'm getting over being sick and just did not have the fight in me. I ordered mussels for starter and eggs florentine and a mimosa. He got the crab cake and steak and eggs and a bloody mary......love those celery sticks!

I heard my husband order his steak well done and remembered that Julia Child said if you have to order your steak well done........order a hamburger!!! But my lips were zipped.....I took a sip and looked at the city across the river....we were facing the United Nation building....must look real pretty at night.

I had a very nice time....he can be very funny when he wants to......I just let him talk.....it was his day....so on and on he went about the big Canada job he is hoping for. I really believe it will all work out.....to tell you the truth, the Lord has a soft spot for this guy......so I don;t doubt that things will be good.

When the bill came.....almost $85.00 for brunch???......He gave me $100 he said he just won on a Lotto scratch off.......I looked at him and said oh....you'll never stop talking about this will you??? He laughed because he knows it is the truth......I let him pay:)

When we got home...he laid on the couch and was snoring in 2 minutes...could not believe it...50 year old man or just a boy? Maybe it was the mimosa but I sure was confused....So I went downstairs and spent the afternoon with my mom and dog Penny .....listened to my moms' ideas and plans and complaints and we watched Matlock and my favorite Monk

Enjoy life's celebrations........even if you are afraid......because God has a good plan for you and me.

Valentine's Day 2010

I just got back from 5 day trip to Disney in Orlando with my daughter, her husband and my two grandchildren - what a time we had. The weather could have been better...but it still was magical. My daughter was invited to a bloggers convention through Hanes and we were given the VIP treatment. No lines to wait on...we stayed for a second ride...the kids had a great time and so did I.!!! We had lunch with the Princess' at Norway.....they were all so pretty...Mary Poppins was there .....practically perfect in every way!....We stayed at the Polynesian Resort and had breakfast with Lilo and Stitch...Mickey and Goofy showed up too.

Snow or no snow....it was good be get back home. and today is Valentine's Day. My husband left the house around 4 AM and I have no idea where he is or when he is coming back......I hope he stays whereever he is.....this divorce is really taking a long time to clear......I'm hoping he was looking for a place to stay while I was away. He told me last night that he was going to work in Canada.(if only).....there is a big steam job opening up and they are calling all steamfitters from the country.......one problem.....you have to sign a waiver that there will be no drinking or trouble making.....someone is going to be stranded in Canada........not looking forward to this....hopefully something else will come up for him work wise. I really don't think Canada is ready for him.

I am meeting my cousin for brunch today.......it's a nice clear day...cold yes....snow no:) Looking forward to that and really happy that tomorrow is a holiday....I need that one more day to get back to reality......

Thankful

The Jets lost on Sunday.......hey, you never know.......maybe next year. My husband shaved off his hair and looks really scary, I have to say. Maybe it's the way I see him now...I don't know. I have signed what I thought was the last of the divorce papers....but my husband has not.....so I understand that it will take a little more time to process. I am filing married, but on my own this year...hoping to get some money back from Uncle Sam:).....I am thinking of going to H&R Block, really don't know what elso to do. Truthfully, I am alittle scared...is that silly, I am 57 years old and my scared days should be behind me. Time to stop thinking I can do it all ....to depend on the Lord and see what will be.

I am meeting my cousin today and having lunch and catching up.....later on I will go to my daughters - babysit and sleep over....those babies are just so lovable.....I smile just thinking about them.....

My husband was not home yesterday when I got in from work and he still has not returned. He told me the other night he was fed up and ready to move on with his life. So.....maybe....he is getting a place to move on to ready....I hope so. I am so afraid there will be trouble when he has to go. He has not worked since August and it does not look good out there........but he still will have to leave.....I don't know what's going to happen......There I go again.....forgetting to lean on God and let it be. Everything will work out...the Lord will provide.

Looking around the world at this time...my troubles really look silly and small. I have to thank God for all the blessing He has given me and my family.

Oh...I want to get a sofa and love seat with the IRS return.....very excited.

Christmas Right Around the Corner

Toys R Us opened up at 7am today......so, while we were having a cup of coffee this morning...iI just came out and asked.......feel like taking me to Toys R Us???? "What for????"......well, my daughter wants the kids to have lots of presents to open....so she requested no money gifts......just wrapped gifts......what do you say??

We got to the store at 7:05 and my husband thought the place was closed....it was very quite and not so many cars in the lot.....hummmm...wait.....he saw someone walking around inside....so, I got out of the car....leaving him with the morning paper, coffee...his smokes and the dog.

It's been years since I was in the store......grabbed a cart and started walking....really not knowing what to get. My granddaughter loves to play kitchen.....so I got her some pots and pans and serving utensils and a toaster, coffee pot and blender. The little guy loves pirates and dinasors, cars and trains....you know Thomas & Friends.

Two hours later I leave with 3 large bags full......my husband just looked at me and said "I thought you said you'd be a hour.......sorry.......but inside I'm smiling....they are going to love everything I got......especially the beginner roller skates!!!!

When we got back home.....I was hungry....so I whipped up a big omelet, toast and we finished off the coffee.......after the dishes I vacummed and changed the bed. It looks like it going to be a lovely day out there......my husband took my mom to bingo....nothing special planned for the day...no babysitting assignments today....just taking it easy......just enjoying the little things...just enjoying the peace.

Hope you are enjoying the weekend and the little blessings from above. I stink at wrapping gifts....but I'll worry about that later.

What's Going On Here?

My husband was laid off his job about 2 months ago. He had a good run, he was there for about 7 months.....very good. The sad thing is, job opportunities do not look so good now and I don't know when they will be again. I hear it'll be another year til things pick up.....the end of the year is generally a problem anyway......so this is where we're at.....but wait.....my husband just got up and informed me that there is a good chance they are going back to work soon......is he talking in his sleep again? ......if it is true....I'm believing it is......Thank God!!

I have been going back and forth in my mind with the divorce...I want it ....I don't want it.....what's going on here....I feel like I'm a little crazy......am I?? Naturally my husband is not drinking now.....so he is this sweet person......am I falling for that again.....how old am I ...really??

My family was here on Sunday...we celebrated my daughter and her husbands birthday....my husband stayed upstairs watching football and we all ate at my mom's downstairs.......my granddaughter came upstairs and told him that she loved him and scribbled little notes saying so......he kept them and showed them to me at the end of the night.....the man was next to tears.....what's going on around here???

I am believing that the Lord will make a path in the wilderness and a river in the desert....I just have to stay still and let it be.

Good Bye To Summer

I can't believe this is the last weekend of the summer.....decided to take off Thursday and Friday and make it a long holiday. Thursday I went to my girlfriends house in Bellmore and spent a great afternoon with the other women who became a grandma with me that wonderful summer of 2005!!!! The babies are now 4 years old and so adorable......My daughter could not make it because she is so busy with her blog "I'm Not Obsessed.com" so my grandchildren did not come but I had a wonderful time anyway...we had cheese and crackers.....fresh vegtables and dip....champagne ...... pizza ,salad and for dessert we had fruit..... red velvet cupcakes.and italian pastries.......the kids played in the pool and later my neighbor's daughter came out and drove us home (my friends' husband had drove us out).I am so happy I went!!!......My husband was back from upstate (safe and sound) when I got home that night.....so I slept downstairs.

Friday morning was just as lovely as yesterday..God is just so good......I am so happy with the great weather we are having!!!! My husband could not get up....he was just worn out from his stay at the trailer......I had to babysit the babies that night but I decided I'd spend the day with them too.....and sleep over so I packed a bag and left.....

When I got there my granddaughter announced to her brother that today is our lucky day.....grandma is here.....with gum..... popcorn......bubbles......red velevet cupcakes (I bought extra) and oh yeah....the best....I let them watch all the TV they want!!!!! But first we went into the backyard in pajamas and filled the little pool and water table and began the fun!!!! It was so beautiful back there......I just love watching them playing, running around and hearing them giggle and laugh .....I think I scream more than them......when they splash me!!! My grandson is just staring to talk .....so I don't really know what he is saying....but he always ends his sentence with "Right, Grandma?" and I just nod my head....yes you are right!!!!

I got home Saturday and found my husband having a hero and potato salad and a cream soda....after he finished he fell asleep on the couch for 3 hours and I walked the dog and enjoyed the lovely day....what a weekend!!!! The weather is just perfect.........Later he decided to sit on the stoop and drink a few beers and have a smoke........the lawyer told me that the papers will be served very soon.........seems like forever....but I'm hoping it happens after the holiday....... he went to the car trunk for his beer in the cooler (left over from upstate) and then went upstairs to finish the beer he just bought that was in the fridge......

Today promises to be just as lovely as the rest of the week was......I am going to my cousins in New Hyde Park for a BBQ.......I have a pork loin I'm bring and I'm heading for Martha's Bakery for some more of them Red Velvet Cupcakes!!!!!!

I am believing that Autumn will be just as lovely .......so enjoy the last weekend of summer ....with family and friends....good company, food.....laugh out loud and have a great time........remember, you have all day tomorrow to rest up.