No More Secrets

I have been uncomfortable about this blog from the beginning. I never told my husband what I have been doing. He kept asking me, what are you doing on the computer at 4 AM? Oh, shopping for Christmas. Truth is, Christmas is all done ready to wrap and put under the tree. So yesterday I started slow, telling him I've started a journal, more like a diary about my life. He should have been a detective. The man can come up with more questions than anyone I know.

When he understood what I''ve been doing he left the room. About 5 minutes later he returned, to tell me he will probably have to sue me. I had to hold my breath because he can really make me laugh. He went on and on about how he will sue me and everyone involved (that includes all of you). I explained that I have a life and that is what I'm writing about, what I see, what I hear, what I feel, what I do.

I explain to him that he lives with me and so I have to include him, he is in my every day life, he is my husband. I reminded him how when he upsets me, he tells me to calm down, everything will be alright, I should understand because I am his wife? Suddenly - the sound of silence. He was not happy - but he could not think of anything to say. But I have to say that I feel so much better. It's out in the open - he knows what I'm doing in the morning. I'm thinking that now he won't give so much to write about. That's me believing that someday he won't want to drink anymore. It can happen.