The Papers Are In

I went to the lawyers in August of 2008. My husband got so drunk upstate that he locked me out of our trailer around 11pm after a argument. I sat in the car for over a hour thinking what to do.....finally i went to my cousins trailer and asked them to please open my trailer.....by luck the keys to our trailers are identical....whats the chance of that? He was in a deep sleep,,...not hearing me knock and knock and call his name..... How did this go on for 18 years? 18...i loved that number once....to be 18....young...free...the world at your feet......18 years living in a maze of madness. I know i'm smarter than that...i know I'm worth more than that.....what took me so long?Just going to the lawyers did not do the trick....no.....I had to think about it.....I had to go to Florida one more time for a week with my husband and this time with his brother and wife....nice people......but not such a nice time.......

My husband was trying once again to relax and enjoy himself......just could not get the hang of it.....pretty easy stuff...relax and enjoy....so easy. Not for my husband...he is always in a struggle to free himself from himself.....it's very sad to watch.

We open up the trailer on May 1.......I just can't do it.......just can't do it...no way...no how

Finally, after that trip i decided to file the papers.....very scared...very nervous......but I'm almost 60 years old....come on now...get up and help yourself!!!!

I mailed the papers to the lawyer on Easter Monday........what a relief......the weight of the world lifted from my shoulders....i look at my husband and wonder ....what spell was over me....why did i take this abuse for so long.......why ask why???....the papers are in.

I told him but I really don't think he belives me.......I've been threatening him for 15 years now...crying wolf for a very long time......but the papers have been received..I got confirmation.....just a matter of time......I'm babysitting this weekend ........ I just can't stop smiling

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