Almost Home

My husband received the divorce papers in the mail....he was to sign them and reurn them. That was in June....he has not yet opened the envelope. He just keeps telling me that I better stop this crap....I should grow up and that I should be ashamed of myself for how I've been acting and what I've been doing to him........and I think....that's it???....is that all he has to say to me? hmmmmm......

He is at his sisters house today....he left yesterday and hopefully he won't be back til tomorrow....The reason he left early (the BBQ is today) is that before I left for work yesterday, I felt I should tell him what I think I would do if I were in his shoes (silly I know butI could not stop myself) so I told him, I think I would use the great alcohol treatment program offered by his union and go away for 30-60-90 days (however long it takes) to show good faith.......the look on his face was that of complete shock....I said the unspeakable....I dared to challenge his beloved drinking....."You got me all wrong" "You don't know what you are talking about" "You should go see a doctor" Shaking his head......"You better just forget about all this"

I remind myself that "what is impossible for man ...is possible with God" I believe He always has my best in mind and so I go on.....

Finally told the lawyer to send a court server with the papers....they should be here sometime this week. I find myself flip flopping back and forth.....Going to miss the dream of a happily ever after with him........but three is a crowd.......I want to be #1 in my mans' life.....does that sound selfish?