No News Is Good News

My husband was laid off about two weeks ago. This never turns out good......first he feels he deserves the break.....then he feels the union should find him a job right away. I know he looks forward to his unemployment money ......we live with my mother, I work full time, so he does not feel any pressure paying bills......I always took that role. The nagging wife.....wrestling the weekly paycheck from him to pay lifes' bills....nothing special....the usual gas, electric, insurance, car, food, gifts, phone, cable, internet, rent,etc....bills that come along with life. He does not look for the bills....so i guess they don't exist in his world. "What are you doing with all the money I give you???" Oh...just living the high life!!

Well, Friday, I went to an office retirement lunch for a c0-worker. I am really going to miss her....she is a very nice woman and a good person to work with. Always helpful and never nasty or uppity (if she knew something you didn't). I work in a Union hall and there are a few people who have to put you and everyone else down to feel good about themselves....I'm thinking they are living with drunks too and don;t know how to cope.....who knows??? Anyway, the luncheon was great ...I ordered the shrimp franchese....love it....came with potatoes and string beans.....we had antipasto, baked clams, fried calamari.....pasta...salad...and cake!!! I ended the meal with a brandy alexander....My dad would always order one when we were out.....it was so good!!! We put Janie in a cab and we all hugged, kissed and cried and promised to get together......you know how that goes......really going to miss her and wishing her joy peace and laughter always.

My husband went upstate on Thursday and I have not heard from or seen him since. This is a small blessing....yet I'm hoping he is ok.....we are getting a divorce but I still don't want any harm to come to him...or for him to harm anyone. I guess I have to go with the idea of no news is good news. I have to remember that the Good Lord watches over us all. That He has a special plan for each of us. Time to stay out of my husbands business.

The pot of coffee is ready....so I'll have a cup and get ready and get myself off to work.

Sure to hear from him soon.....have a good day and be safe and hold on to your faith.
God Bless

Almost Home

My husband received the divorce papers in the mail....he was to sign them and reurn them. That was in June....he has not yet opened the envelope. He just keeps telling me that I better stop this crap....I should grow up and that I should be ashamed of myself for how I've been acting and what I've been doing to him........and I think....that's it???....is that all he has to say to me? hmmmmm......

He is at his sisters house today....he left yesterday and hopefully he won't be back til tomorrow....The reason he left early (the BBQ is today) is that before I left for work yesterday, I felt I should tell him what I think I would do if I were in his shoes (silly I know butI could not stop myself) so I told him, I think I would use the great alcohol treatment program offered by his union and go away for 30-60-90 days (however long it takes) to show good faith.......the look on his face was that of complete shock....I said the unspeakable....I dared to challenge his beloved drinking....."You got me all wrong" "You don't know what you are talking about" "You should go see a doctor" Shaking his head......"You better just forget about all this"

I remind myself that "what is impossible for man ...is possible with God" I believe He always has my best in mind and so I go on.....

Finally told the lawyer to send a court server with the papers....they should be here sometime this week. I find myself flip flopping back and forth.....Going to miss the dream of a happily ever after with him........but three is a crowd.......I want to be #1 in my mans' life.....does that sound selfish?